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[IWMP]

Hope it goes well. Do you feel like the sibo returned?

This is how I think of it. I think some bad bacteria sent out invitations for a party in my gut and the guests are starting to arrive.

So yes, I think so. I don't know if I ever got rid of it. I think that maybe I did get rid of it and the symptoms I still get are from a damaged gut.

In so many ways I feel better but I still get symptoms especially at night. I still get bloating that hurts but not the humongous level I had previously. I think I actually sent you photos of that?

It's hard for me to remember things in detail since so many things have happened to me. Can you tell me if I sent you pics of that?

You did send pictures. Hope your gut continues to heal. it doesn't sound fun but hopefully if there is a sibo colony starting you can catch it before it escalated.

[IWMP]

This from the list of symptoms.

Abnormal dreams ----Panic dreams twice, One absolutely lovely dream,

I don't remember the panic dreams at all. I don't think it was like a panic attack or sleep paralysis. I think they might have been one of those dreams when you feel like you're late for something and rushing. Might have personal notes on my computer about those.

The lovely dream I remember. It was one of those dreams you want to stay in. I dreamt about my mother. <3

Awww <3

I have unusual dreams probably every night and sometimes multiple times a night. The sleep tracker on my watch told me I had an unusually long REM sleep one night. That happened to be the same night I had multiple intense dreams and it felt never ending to me. So that was interesting to see. I often think dreams last seconds but the mind fills in the gaps to make them feel longer but the rem sleep I had that night, it definitely didn't last seconds lol.

[IWMP]

FYI: Never in my whole entire posting life did I ever think I would ever post any of these things about the Boy and I on an internet message board like this. Ever. Way too private. Not any more I guess.

It's not super personal. You don't share details or identifying information. But it is nice to hear how things are improving. And the funny moments like him disappearing before you get up and we don't know whether to be horrified or impressed lol. You're fine. I over share and then I'm like crap. Because sometimes when you are in that headspace things can feel worse than they are and then when you clear your mind it's like actually my perspective could be shifted some. But that's the good thing about writing stuff out rather than reacting in real life. It gives you time to process and see the bigger picture by getting those thoughts out and finding some organisation in your mind. And I personally don't like to share my worries with people in real life.

[IWMP]

FYI: Never in my whole entire posting life did I ever think I would ever post any of these things about the Boy and I on an internet message board like this. Ever. Way too private. Not any more I guess.

You're in a safe space...mostly.
Sometimes someone needs to step in to combat the trolls and the dumbasses, but...i guarantee, we will always be there for you. Always.

[Jersey Girl]

A little pressed for time atm, but just want to get this up here. Yes I did read the comments and yes, you ladies did make me cry grateful tears. <3

Delaying the start of the antibiotic until tomorrow night or Thursday a.m. that's when I'll have a good stretch of time to stick close to home. Wed is a hair cut appointment and Thursday night is my last art thing meeting. Cheers for both! \o/ \o/ \o/

So this is a short spiritual related thing. I watched this video short on youtube the other day it's someone I watch for decluttering and organization, and the things the woman said that after digging deeper into her faith she gave up doing. One of them was judging.

Okay listen. I'm not judgy of most anyone else except the Boy. I judge him every single day of my life. If I'm not talking directly to him I'm ranting in my head with critical comments. If it's something I want him to change, I present it when I'm calm. But the truth is that in my head I'm judging, criticizing, ranting.

So what happened after that video short was crazy. I found myself in my head saying something like "Will you please stop saying the same thing over and over and over again??? You sound like a broken record!!!"

Immediately I thought what if Jesus said that to me about my prayer? I have a prayer list for people I know that includes family and friends. I used to never really be on it myself, but obviously I have been since being ill.

What if I asked Jesus "Lord I know you can heal me. Please, I want to be healed, Lord." (which I do, all the time) and he said to me, "Jersey will you PLEASE STOP SAYING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AGAIN??? I HEARD YOU THE FIRST TIME!!! QUIT WITH THE BROKEN RECORD ALREADY!!!"

See that?

Since that video short whenever I got to ranting in my head, it's automatic now. What if Jesus said that to ME? I'm over here expecting perfection, kindness, unconditional love, gentleness, and what if he suddenly turned on me and started yelling at me like that?

Current Status: Convicted.

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/kheq9eej5to

[Res Ipsa]

A little pressed for time atm, but just want to get this up here. Yes I did read the comments and yes, you ladies did make me cry grateful tears. <3

Delaying the start of the antibiotic until tomorrow night or Thursday a.m. that's when I'll have a good stretch of time to stick close to home. Wed is a hair cut appointment and Thursday night is my last art thing meeting. Cheers for both! \o/ \o/ \o/

So this is a short spiritual related thing. I watched this video short on youtube the other day it's someone I watch for decluttering and organization, and the things the woman said that after digging deeper into her faith she gave up doing. One of them was judging.

Okay listen. I'm not judgy of most anyone else except the Boy. I judge him every single day of my life. If I'm not talking directly to him I'm ranting in my head with critical comments. If it's something I want him to change, I present it when I'm calm. But the truth is that in my head I'm judging, criticizing, ranting.

So what happened after that video short was crazy. I found myself in my head saying something like "Will you please stop saying the same thing over and over and over again??? You sound like a broken record!!!"

Immediately I thought what if Jesus said that to me about my prayer? I have a prayer list for people I know that includes family and friends. I used to never really be on it myself, but obviously I have been since being ill.

What if I asked Jesus "Lord I know you can heal me. Please, I want to be healed, Lord." (which I do, all the time) and he said to me, "Jersey will you PLEASE STOP SAYING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AGAIN??? I HEARD YOU THE FIRST TIME!!! QUIT WITH THE BROKEN RECORD ALREADY!!!"

See that?

Since that video short whenever I got to ranting in my head, it's automatic now. What if Jesus said that to ME? I'm over here expecting perfection, kindness, unconditional love, gentleness, and what if he suddenly turned on me and started yelling at me like that?

Current Status: Convicted.

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/kheq9eej5to

I love reading about your epiphanies in every day life.

[Jersey Girl]

Today's update.


Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you. ~ Isaiah 46:4 NIV

[Jersey Girl]

Xifaxan

Start Date: Saturday, November 15, 2025

(I'm going to use this one post to record any and all side effects so it's going to change with edits over the next 14 days. If I end up getting stupid on account of brain fog I'll still do my best to record symptoms if I can. Watch this post for future displays of public embarrassment. )

Oh yeah like I started it when I said I would. Drag my feet, who me?

November 20, 2025

1 hour after the first dose

Couple of mild abdominal pinchy pains both sides of tummy. Came and went.

2.5 hours after the first dose.

Sleepy already. Nodding off while watching youtube videos.

Gut making all sorts of noises. Probably the bad bacteria: She did it again! Help! She's onto us! Run! Run! Run for your life!

7 hours after the first dose

Itchy rash both sides of neck. Stop it. Stop it. Stop it.

[Jersey Girl]

I love reading about your epiphanies in every day life.

Sometimes one thing leads to another when I least expect it. I was watching a video short from a channel I like about decluttering and organization and I thought she'd say things like she stopped watching R rated movies but no. I got hit with a giant WHAM right upside my own head.

I can't unhear it now. As soon as it comes out of my mouth I can't unhear being spoken to that way by Jesus.

[IWMP]

Xifaxan

Start Date: Saturday, November 15, 2025

(I'm going to use this one post to record any and all side effects so it's going to change with edits over the next 14 days. If I end up getting stupid on account of brain fog I'll still do my best to record symptoms if I can. Watch this post for future displays of public embarrassment. )

Oh yeah like I started it when I said I would. Drag my feet, who me?

November 20, 2025

1 hour after the first dose

Couple of mild abdominal pinchy pains both sides of tummy. Came and went.

2.5 hours after the first dose.

Sleepy already. Nodding off while watching youtube videos.

Gut making all sorts of noises. Probably the bad bacteria: She did it again! Help! She's onto us! Run! Run! Run for your life!

7 hours after the first dose

Itchy rash both sides of neck. Stop it. Stop it. Stop it.

are you sure you aren't allergic to these? Is itchy rash a common side effect?