I have a question wrote:Firstly, I'm thinking you're smacked off your face on too much sugar...

I do eat way too much sugar....sigh....
...or spend way too much time reading, and place way too much importance on, a bunch of Iron Age blogs containing second or third or fourth hand accounts about events that may not of ever happened, written by people who were driving their own agendas and wanted to use their writings as a means of getting themselves heard. Think of the Bible as a collection of printed out Mormon Discussions OP's and you'll get what I mean.
Secondly, I've reached the conclusion that any person attracted to religion or faith or spiritualism or any other supernaturalism that you care to mention, always, ALWAYS, creates a 'God' in the image that suits them best. Regardless of any other external factors, it's always, ALWAYS, an internally generated depiction. As demonstrated by everything you've written.
I wasn't able to control what I was taught since childhood...which, of course, is a big part of the discussion on this thread. We are ALL taught according to what our parents, teachers, friends, media, school, culture, want to teach us. We can't change what they taught....but we sure can question it if that is our desire.
There are questions we ask ourselves....what the heck am I doing here. Where did I come from. Where do I go when I die; or is it all over. Is there a purpose for existence. I think religion was created in the minds of men; not only to try to answer those questions, but also to not have to take responsibility for their own actions. Thus, the concepts of good and evil had to have a source from outside of us. "God" and "Satan" were born from our imaginations. They are vain because they place fault outside of ourselves.
It's interesting to me that when "prophets" (albeit they are discussed in religious canon) would come along, the people stuck inside of religion would also relate that the prophets got killed...and by religious people. If they really came along...which, even though we read about them inside of religious canon it immediately makes the story of their existence questionable, it still is curious that they kept appearing in canon at all...and that the prophets who were supposedly revered by the religious, somehow still managed to get themselves killed. Another interesting thing is that the prophets seemed to be telling the same message; and it was the message that caused their demise.
I wasn't looking to find a "god" in my own image; that was just part of the tradition I was taught. I was also very afraid of "god"; even though the prophet, Isaiah, taught that the fear of god came from the precepts of man. In other words, if there really was a god, then he/she/it shouldn't be feared. Yet, I was terrified to think outside of the box of what religion had taught me. After all, by doing so, I was in danger of burning in hell for forever. There is great control over our minds taught by the precepts of religion. It took me a long time to realize that what I was being taught by religion just didn't match what the prophets were teaching----especially, especially, especially, about the "Christ"---religion's greatest prophet of all.
So, what other options was the world offering? It was what science offered. But what science has offered actually seems even more unbelievable than what I now believe. Science hasn't been able to prove any of the theories which have to do with where we came from, why we are here, where we are going. They are still only theories. I can't help but take note of how many of the other theories of science have either been later discarded by science; or have had to be altered over and over again. It didn't give me much confidence in what science had to say about the questions concerning human reality.
It is due to the advancements made in technology that I can now see that my new belief (that WE are the Father) is more easily believed than the answers science has provided about our reality. Our "game" technology alone gives much more credence to the possibilities than, for instance, the Big Bang. What we can do with virtual games, and the advancements made with robotics are incredible. Technology is advancing at such an amazing rate, I have no choice but to believe that we have only scratched the surface of what is possible. I can imagine that we will be able to create the things we dream up and put into movies like A.I. Artificial Intelligence, or Avatar, in which we can, while in a dream state where we are still living, enter another body and control it from our dream state, etc. There are so many movies that I think are touching what is possible..I happen to love Caprica for that reason. What we can now imagine as possible has changed from what we used to think was possible. As such, I can now imagine that at some point, our mortal technology can advance to where we can begin to create new worlds. That seems much more plausible to me than the idea...to bring it to a very basic understanding of the Big Bang...that the world was created by happenstance, and without purpose.
Inasmuch as we create virtual games out of curiosity, for entertainment to prevent boredom...and that we make advancements in technology to improve our circumstances...I can see that we create with a purpose in mind. It is an easy step for me to then see that my question, "what is the purpose for my existence", to be of sound reasoning. In other words, there IS a purpose for our existence. The mere ability for the human being to experience the emotions of hope, love, hate, joy, sorrow...which are much more advanced than any other species on the earth, is something I cannot believe grew out of the happenstance of the Big Bang theory.
To me, the belief that WE are the creators...the Father, is much more easy for me to accept than what science teaches. With our technological advancements, it is much easier for me to believe that our real selves are remotely viewing what is going on here in mortality. To compare this with what I was already beginning to see in my study of what prophets taught..especially Christ....and by discarding everything else written in religious canon as bs, it is easy for me to believe that there is a connection between what they were trying to teach and what I now believe. If our technology can advance to where we are able to create worlds as mortals, than surely more advanced beings could also exist..and they can be monitoring their own creations just as we see being done in today's sci-fi movies (which movies were created even though we are still in the infant stage of where technology will take us). The idea that we may be the only world that was ever created out of happenstance since the odds would be immeasurable seems just as vain as the ideas of "god" and "satan". Additionally, both theories place the source of our world outside of ourselves; and that we had no choice in the matter, since it was either happenstance, or God who placed us here.
Hey, thanks for participating in this thread!