Need help: I don't know if I'm a "Mormon" or not.
Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 3:37 am
Okay, so I have just joined this discussion group, and I figured who else better to discuss my personal problems than with strangers on the internet? Here is my problem: should I, with my current beliefs, define myself as "Mormon."
I was convert a few years ago, but I guess I never accepted that the LDS church was "the one and only true church," and in fact, I'm not sure it is. I don't actually believe that God would have a particular organization to be "His church" at all. I don't believe that was ever said in the Bible. But I also have doubts about the existence of God and what His nature really is. I am an Agnostic in the philosophical sense*. I do not follow all the church rules, nor believe every single one of them are good. I do not believe Gordon B. Hinckley is a prophet, but because such things cannot be proved, I don't have a particular testimony that he isn't. I run my life the best way I can, and do what makes me happy and what will be the best for myself and other people. I drink tea and coffee--but not alcohol or smoke. If I do go to church on Sunday, I don't always go to the LDS church. I do believe in Jesus and God, but not nessecerly the divinity of the LDS church. I hold official church membership, but only the Aaronic priesthood, never served a mission, don't take the sacrament or a calling. I sometimes give a minimal tithing (as an "anonymous offering"). But I have no problem going to church and participating in the activities. I don't have a testimony that the LDS church is true, but I don't have a testimony that it is false either. I am, though, open to and appreciate some of the unique doctrines (like spiritual bodies/spirit matter, possibility of Jesus being married [Brigham Young], multiple hierarchy of gods, premortal existence, eternal marriage, polygamy as an option but not requirement for salvation, the Doctrine and Covenants, Pearl of Great Price, etc.), but not others (Book of Mormon as historical, three kingdoms of Heaven, extreme "worthiness" standards, missionary program, etc.)
Okay, here is the problem: I live in Utah county, and I keep getting asked if I'm "Mormon." If I say yes, people expect certain things out of me, if I say no, people invite me to LDS church and tell me about their beliefs...I'm afraid they will invite me to meet the missionaries. I once was asked if I was a "cultural Mormon," but I didn't think I fit into that category because I am rather culturally inept to what most church members have experienced (hey what's "scripture mastery" again?). The question is what makes a "Mormon" a "Mormon?" It seems to me that more-so than any other church I've been involved with, LDS usually define themselves so due more to being officially on the rolls than to what they actually believe or practice. What exactly am I? What should I tell people.
*Agnostic in the philosophical sense means that I don't think that the existence of God/His will/His nature can be proven or known (in this life at least). This is apart from "believing" or "hoping." Agnostic, in its general meaning usually carries a connotation of someone who doesn't know or care about God.
I was convert a few years ago, but I guess I never accepted that the LDS church was "the one and only true church," and in fact, I'm not sure it is. I don't actually believe that God would have a particular organization to be "His church" at all. I don't believe that was ever said in the Bible. But I also have doubts about the existence of God and what His nature really is. I am an Agnostic in the philosophical sense*. I do not follow all the church rules, nor believe every single one of them are good. I do not believe Gordon B. Hinckley is a prophet, but because such things cannot be proved, I don't have a particular testimony that he isn't. I run my life the best way I can, and do what makes me happy and what will be the best for myself and other people. I drink tea and coffee--but not alcohol or smoke. If I do go to church on Sunday, I don't always go to the LDS church. I do believe in Jesus and God, but not nessecerly the divinity of the LDS church. I hold official church membership, but only the Aaronic priesthood, never served a mission, don't take the sacrament or a calling. I sometimes give a minimal tithing (as an "anonymous offering"). But I have no problem going to church and participating in the activities. I don't have a testimony that the LDS church is true, but I don't have a testimony that it is false either. I am, though, open to and appreciate some of the unique doctrines (like spiritual bodies/spirit matter, possibility of Jesus being married [Brigham Young], multiple hierarchy of gods, premortal existence, eternal marriage, polygamy as an option but not requirement for salvation, the Doctrine and Covenants, Pearl of Great Price, etc.), but not others (Book of Mormon as historical, three kingdoms of Heaven, extreme "worthiness" standards, missionary program, etc.)
Okay, here is the problem: I live in Utah county, and I keep getting asked if I'm "Mormon." If I say yes, people expect certain things out of me, if I say no, people invite me to LDS church and tell me about their beliefs...I'm afraid they will invite me to meet the missionaries. I once was asked if I was a "cultural Mormon," but I didn't think I fit into that category because I am rather culturally inept to what most church members have experienced (hey what's "scripture mastery" again?). The question is what makes a "Mormon" a "Mormon?" It seems to me that more-so than any other church I've been involved with, LDS usually define themselves so due more to being officially on the rolls than to what they actually believe or practice. What exactly am I? What should I tell people.
*Agnostic in the philosophical sense means that I don't think that the existence of God/His will/His nature can be proven or known (in this life at least). This is apart from "believing" or "hoping." Agnostic, in its general meaning usually carries a connotation of someone who doesn't know or care about God.