Bob McCue:
I have had many intense, moving spiritual experiences that given the premises of the Mormon belief system ... should be expected to buttress the belief that Mormonism was literally true and so increase the force of denial in my life. These experiences include the lost of sense of self Newberg et al. Describe in "Why God Won't Go Away." that I have had many times while praying about the Book of Mormon and in other Mormon religious contexts. During these moments I felt connected to a source of love and peace that was at times overpowering and more attractive than anything else I have felt. I also had many experiences while serving in various church leadership capacities and particularly while serving as a Bishop, during which I felt like I was the conduit of 'pure knowledge' while counseling those in need or while giving priesthood blessings. One particularly powerful experience occurred as I prepared to officiate and speak at a particularly tragic funeral. I still marvel at the power I felt, and insights that came to me, at that time. Finally, I had many intensely moving experiences in a family context while giving priesthood blessings.... How can we understand experiences of this nature? How can such seemingly wonderful moments spring from something as bankrupt as literalist Mormonism seems to be? Are these experiences "good fruits" that indicate God's hand somehow works through Mormonism despite all of its obvious difficulties?
Thanks Ray,
These were my experiences.
Yet I feel betrayed and no longer have interest in that spirit.
Even though I exhibited supernatural powers while channeling this spirit (ie. revealing secrets, seeing the future, healing/being healed - spiritually as well as physically, expressing the Mormon God's love etc.), I've come to the conclusion that this spirit is just as fallable as a mortal. In fact, the spirit is a powerful liar - human but with supernatural powers. Good intentioned perhaps, but not honest.
Not like who I want to be.
The God Spot explanation needs about a keg to swallow, though.