Bond...James Bond wrote:Maybe it's cause I'm not explicit and do alot of innuendoing.
You know what, Bond? I think it's cause I don't do lots of innuendo that I run into trouble. I also think that perhaps I am a bit naïve in a way with the way people would view me on this board. Yet, marg isn't LDS and she apparently thinks my behavior is more sexually inviting than Liz's. So, perhaps it's just 'cause it's MY personality, MY life, etc... that I get shocked when people respond the way they do. Maybe it is that I don't think it's a big deal if teen girls have sex, or think it's a big deal to have sex outside marriage, or a big deal to do whatever that I just blabber crap. I mean, people I ran with didn't think it was a big deal. Yet, then again I was in a sub-culture that was punk clubs, raves, etc... We just did whatever and it was no biggie. I know I'm a early 30 year old woman with kids, that is pursuing her dream in regards to educational pursuits, has interests that are rather bland and just a normal woman. Yet, maybe I'm not?
I'm a lot less of a hellion than most of my friends so I think I'm calm and normal in comparison.
But, then again I used to post on a step-mom board for about 2 years and we all knew EVERYTHING about each other (oooh the fights!) and no one batted an eye. Well, they didn't know too much about me.... 'cause I was embarrassed to say a word about myself. I'm not now! There was an author that went to write about strip clubs (she wrote Candy Girl) became a stripper for a year. There were women that were artists and lived unconventional lives. There were women that participated in sex clubs with their spouses. There was a young woman that had an affair with an old guy and married him for his money and then hated her step-kids. There were women complaining about sex with their husbands. There were women talking about just everything. I felt quite zen there. So, I'm not sure what it is.
Maybe it's me? Maybe I should just not care if it is me. I'm not changing. I've learned to not let it bother me too much. I think seeing people on here making stupid comments about sex irritates me -- it's just 'cause it's pretty much the first time I've heard lots of these stereotypes and I speak up -- yet, actually TALKING about it and speaking out makes me feel rejuvenated in some aspect. Almost as if reminding myself I'm still in here. This is me and if someone says or does something I don't like it feels rather pleasant to tell them so. :)