Who has been where I am? Questioning. Where did you end up?

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Re: Who has been where I am? Questioning. Where did you end

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mms wrote:(A little more information about me (I am being quite careful, because I think anonymity is important in my situation), but I am a fairly well-established professional with the respect of many in my ward and stake for my service in the ward and in the stake. Of the five members of my family who joined the church, the others have had nothing to do with the church for at least twenty years (but none have resigned simply because they are too lazy and don't care, so they are part of the 13 million.)

by the way -still totally active and holding a calling.


Isn't this rather cowardly and hypocritical, to pretend to be supportive of the church in your home stake, but attack it anonymously here? Do you think that you demonstrate admirable character traits with your post?

I, by contrast, started studying anti-Mormon literature with the encouragement of my mission president while a missionary in Illinois. I had the great fortune of having access to the private collections of Kimball Young at Northwestern and Gerald Urban at Trinity College in Deerfield, as well as access to Mr. Urban and NIV translators expert in anti-Mormon theory. The Young collection had the earliest manuscripts of the Tanners' works, and this is where I was first exposed to it.

Since then, no priesthood leader has ever discouraged me from reading or writing anything about Church history. And, I use my own name when I post. And, my feelings and writings are as consistent here as they are in Church on Sunday.

Bob Crockett
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Post by _truth dancer »

One thing that ate at me while a believer...

The fact that the world is filled with literally billions of people of differing faiths who believe just as firmly as any LDS, that their particular religion is true. This planet is covered with all sorts of people with as many spiritual experiences ,healings, revelations, vision, answered prayers, and deep faith... yet their "truth" is not the LDS version!

Is the whole rest of the world deceived with the exception of a little handful of folks, with their white, fifties, Utahn subculture?

Obviously the Book of Mormon is not 'true' in the real sense, the Book of Mormon is not what it claims to be, the D&C has been altered and changed in dramatic ways (do you know about the removal of sec 101:4 for example?), the leaders are all over the place on every single issue, doctrine, and teaching, and beliefs change like Michigan weather. The prophets supposedly commune with the divine yet their revelations/inspiration are nothing but opinion and are worthless as water down the drain.

So one is left with a spiritual witness... which means what?

Is every other person in the world who believes their spiritual witness/experience, wrong? Is everyone else mistaken? Are only the LDS spiritual experiences the real true ones? The ones from God? What of the "healings" throughout the world without the priesthood?

The whole thing just does not make any kind of sense to me.

But then I am totally open to the idea that I am not one of the chosen and what seems real is some sort of delusion or trick. :-) Be that as it may, I have decided to live in the world that seems more in tune with my personal experience.

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Re: Who has been where I am? Questioning. Where did you end

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rcrocket wrote:Isn't this rather cowardly and hypocritical, to pretend to be supportive of the church in your home stake, but attack it anonymously here? Do you think that you demonstrate admirable character traits with your post?


In what way does expressing one's doubts constitute "attacking" the church? This kind of logical leap is just bizarre. In my conversations with mms, he's a member who wants to believe, who still has faith, and yet you want to call him a coward for simply wanting to deal with issues he's struggling with. Lovely.

I, by contrast, started studying anti-Mormon literature with the encouragement of my mission president while a missionary in Illinois. I had the great fortune of having access to the private collections of Kimball Young at Northwestern and Gerald Urban at Trinity College in Deerfield, as well as access to Mr. Urban and NIV translators expert in anti-Mormon theory. The Young collection had the earliest manuscripts of the Tanners' works, and this is where I was first exposed to it.

Since then, no priesthood leader has ever discouraged me from reading or writing anything about Church history. And, I use my own name when I post. And, my feelings and writings are as consistent here as they are in Church on Sunday.

Bob Crockett


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Post by _mms »

This is all very interesting and I truly do thank you for taking the time you have. I have read every post carefully and hope that more will contribute, even though you have probably contirbuted this information elsewhere and are repeating yourself to some exent--again, appreciated.

Two things:

1) Will you lurkers who can relate to my situation give consideration to registering and posting in this thread, if no other? Simply go to hotmail.com and open a new email address if you are uncomfortable using your usual address. I know you are out there and really want to hear what you are feeling/doing/enduring. It takes seconds to register and I think we could all benefit. (Is anyone a poster on postmormon.org? Might you tell them about this thread and see if they will contribute?)

2) It seems like almost everyone who has been where I am ended up as a non-believer (different degrees of activity based on family situations, but non-belief nonetheless). Those of you who have been where I am and still believe and feel like this was simply a "trial of [your] faith," please chime in -- is anyone out there? (I am starting to wonder if there is some kind of inevitable end once you get to where I am on this stuff.)
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Post by _dartagnan »

Isn't this rather cowardly and hypocritical, to pretend to be supportive of the church in your home stake, but attack it anonymously here?


Again with this tripe Bob?

I think he demonstrates admirable character traits for following the evidence where it leads him. It is far more admirable than the brain-dead “I know the Church is true and no amount of evidence will dissuade me” attitude that we so often see from the TBMs at MAD.

He isn’t attacking the Church. He has concerns and he knows the Church well enough to know it is best to post anonymously. He has already mentioned his bishop’s opinions, which could actually get his bishop in trouble too, if he gave out information that enabled idiots from the SMC to track him down. You’re the only blowhard apologist who has problems with this. Nobody else from MAD seems to care, including Dan Peterson. Why do you always pop in with your opinion as if anyone gives a flying flip what you think?

This is just cheap tactics to attack people, nothing more. There is no logic behind your entire argument about posting anonymously.

I, by contrast, started studying anti-Mormon literature with the encouragement of my mission president while a missionary in Illinois. I had the great fortune of having access to the private collections of Kimball Young at Northwestern and Gerald Urban at Trinity College in Deerfield, as well as access to Mr. Urban and NIV translators expert in anti-Mormon theory. The Young collection had the earliest manuscripts of the Tanners' works, and this is where I was first exposed to it.

Since then, no priesthood leader has ever discouraged me from reading or writing anything about Church history. And, I use my own name when I post. And, my feelings and writings are as consistent here as they are in Church on Sunday.


Everything you just said here has destroyed whatever credibility you had left Bob. Everyone one of here knows the Church does not encourage independent research of LDS truth claims. If you were given access to anything, it was to act as an apologist with the intention, not to verify LDS truth claims, but rather to attack those who have made valid criticisms. It is established fact that you guys can only counter with your personal experiences that always seem to be completely opposite from what everyone else has experienced throughout the years in the Church. The reason nobody in the Church has problems with your independent research is because you’re a bishop who toes the party line. You don’t follow the evidence where it leads you. You look at it but then quickly run back to the party line and rehearse “I know the Church is true.” You present no threat to the Church, whereas people like us present an obvious threat. They don’t want Mormons criticizing anything about the Church. They’d rather excommunicate us all so they can dismiss us as apostates.

Again, this is hardly admirable of you to tell people something you know isn’t true.

What missionaries on planet earth would encourage their investigators to hit the libraries or the internet before baptism?

Simple question. You know the answer, but I want a quick “admirable” check to see how you will answer.
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mms wrote:2) It seems like almost everyone who has been where I am ended up as a non-believer (different degrees of activity based on family situations, but non-belief nonetheless). Those of you who have been where I am and still believe and feel like this was simply a "trial of [your] faith," please chime in -- is anyone out there? (I am starting to wonder if there is some kind of inevitable end once you get to where I am on this stuff.)


I am still a believer... in God. I lost my belief in the authority and efficacy of the so-called modern prophets long ago. I am still a member of the church in good standing, which is what sticks in Juliann's, Daniel's, and our own dear Robert's craw so much.
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I ended up with a hyper-inflated ego.
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Re: Who has been where I am? Questioning. Where did you end

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Isn't this rather cowardly and hypocritical, to pretend to be supportive of the church in your home stake, but attack it anonymously here? Do you think that you demonstrate admirable character traits with your post?

I, by contrast, started studying anti-Mormon literature with the encouragement of my mission president while a missionary in Illinois. I had the great fortune of having access to the private collections of Kimball Young at Northwestern and Gerald Urban at Trinity College in Deerfield, as well as access to Mr. Urban and NIV translators expert in anti-Mormon theory. The Young collection had the earliest manuscripts of the Tanners' works, and this is where I was first exposed to it.

Since then, no priesthood leader has ever discouraged me from reading or writing anything about Church history. And, I use my own name when I post. And, my feelings and writings are as consistent here as they are in Church on Sunday.

Bob Crockett


Thanks, Bob. Appreciate your input. You and I disagree on what is considered an "attack" on the church and I am not sure what you mean by "pretend"--did you not read about my conversation with my Bishop? That's okay, though. Sounds like you are good guy going the extra mile for what you believe by trying to help others out here. Best, MMS.
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Post by _Blixa »

Good grief. Another brilliant post from Bob "Broken Record" Crockett about his favorite hobby horse. Why doesn't he just cut to the chase with a lite version of the argument---You are a coward, I by contrast am heroic and brave? Afterall, his argument about anonomynity is pathetically shallow, and his continual calling out of sincere questioners as craven and manipulative anti-mormons is petty and sickening.

I don't use my "real" name or post my email randomly after dealing with internet nutjobs: after getting bizarre email after bizarre email from Van Hale, I decided to save myself the trouble. I've read things people have posted anonymously about me on bulletin boards and not felt the need to double dog dare them to meet me behind the Safeway.

You've got my face Bob. According to DCP over on MAD you can divine everything important about a person from looking at their photograph. I don't know, maybe you should peer at my avatar through a rock, though, to get my exact GPS coordinates.
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Post by _evolving »

MMS -- as I read your post and I saw me 6 months ago.. if you swap the BYU to UofU --- not in a magical mystical way mind you - I no longer believe in the Woo-Woo of remote viewing and the ilk... but I was in your position.

after a number of shotgun approaches to apologetics. I attacked all of my doctrinal questions with a methodology that made sense to me. I made a list. I sat down in front of my desk, and I started writing down all of the issues I had with history, doctrine, scripture, politics, and lifestyle. all from memory - I figured if I could remember it as something I had a problem with, on a random Tuesday - I was justified adopting it as my issue with the church.. and after that exercise, I re-listed the events by dated chronology, and I set off on a process to solve my problems one by one.. It is interesting there is so mush noise right now over seer-stones and treasure digging - because that is where I came to a mind numbing screeching halt - I did not believe Joseph Smith saw anything in his hat, ever - I did not then and I do not believe today that God would work that way to restore "Perfected Christianity".. that realization led me to 2 months of depression and sleepless nights. -- then I made another list - I managed to find a number of good things, and it was enough to keep me attending with my family. today, I accept the church on my terms. I have been released from my callings, because I could not serve, and be honest with myself, of those I was serving with. I have had a few "how's your testimony" talks with my bishop, he knows where I am, and more importantly for me is "why". and at least for now he is cool with it - but some bishops are not !! I do not know how long I will maintain the belief that the church has more good than bad things to offer my children. things would be different for me if I did not live in a neighborhood where life revolves around the church. Family, Friends, Neighbors all fiercely Mormon and the last thing I want for my wife and kids is the Mormon shun. So I will continue to sit through the painful discussions of how satan leads us to porn, or how Jesus helps us find missing wallets and keys.

My primary goal today, is to instill in my kids, the critical thinking skills I lacked for 36 years..
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