Ray A wrote:Inconceivable wrote:Ray A wrote:Sorry to hear this. And sorry to bore you with a platitude: Been there, done that. Life is still beautiful, and there is life "after Mormonism".
er.. thanks, Ray.
I thought you were out but trying to get back in.
and yes, no doubt there is beauty in life and I've witnessed it. I'm just dealing with mostly things that have Picaso'd my family's life for now. I fail to see beauty in this type of art/reality.
Contrary to "some" popular opinion, I'm not trying to get back in. I've taken what I, in my biased opinion, consider the best in Mormonism, and rejected the rest.
I know you feel much heartache, and I really feel for you. I could tell from your post. Seven years ago I considered taking my life, for a few seconds anyway. Good music, and a few beers, and positive thinking, made me realise that no one person, or event, can bring me happiness, but that I must create my own happiness. I lost everything I held dear. So I went out and bought my $20 toaster, because I had nothing left after I was raided. From there I worked up to buying a car, and restarting my life. My attitude was that sometimes in life you're the dog, other times you're the pole. When you're the dog, make sure you piss as hard as you can. Karma, and all that.
My philosophy was, "this, too, will pass". And it did. Best wishes to you. Never despair! When one door closes, another opens.
ray:
great post and thoughts!
regards,
thestyleguy