Jersey Girl wrote:Blixa,
Something stood out for me in your comments where you said you longed for and also avoided lets say, your roots, for twenty years. In my life, I longed for and avoided that type of thing for many years until I had the need to "go home again". That one instance of revisiting opened up a journey that has turned out to be extremely positive for me and my family members, and reconciled some issues I'd been pushing aside. Maybe that could happen for you.
Thanks Jersey.
Some of what you say has taken place and is still taking place. I first "went home" in 2002 under very strange and magical circumstances (I've been meaning to rework a description of that trip for my board blog). It was an extremely wonderful and harrowing trip. Since then I've been back for three short visits and soon will be leaving to spend a few months there. The fact that I'm currently researching writing a book about a Utah history related topic speaks volumes about the "return of the repressed" and the inability of ever severing oneself from history (which, in a sense, is the exact point of what I'll be writing about, understood more broadly than just personal history, however).