I can't hide the truth any longer
Posted: Wed Apr 02, 2008 1:54 am
Will Schryver's confession on this board has inspired me. It's time for me to come out of the closet, as well. All these years I have actually had a testimony of the Book of Mormon, but I've been afraid to admit it because it means sacrificing my enormous ego and leaving my family and all the ones I love. But every time I read a FARMS essay I am reminded that the Gospel is built on truth, and that I have been hiding behind a lie. Daniel Peterson's extraordinary wit has especially helped me to move toward the truth. When he mocks and belittles the exmormon and anti-Mormon communities, I am reminded of the intellectual and spiritual poverty of the persons with whom I keep company. Pahoran has also been a powerful witness to me. His frank truth-telling has always seared me to the very core of my soul, because deep down inside I know he's right.
I have taken some comfort in pretending that the LDS Church is a terrible organization that harms its members and suppresses gays and women, but even these atrocity tales have been exposed as terrible falsehoods by juliann's brilliant sociological analyses. And while the testimony of science has also supported me in my apostasy-- because denying my testimony is apostasy, and I may in fact be beyond forgiveness at this point-- Alan Goff and David Bohn have exposed the fact that science is built on a false "positivism" that has been discredited by postmodern scholars like Jacques Derrida, who no doubt would be baptized right alongside me if only he were alive today.
And so to all of these apologists, I want to say thanks for being such shining examples to me all these years. I couldn't have discovered the truth without you.
I have taken some comfort in pretending that the LDS Church is a terrible organization that harms its members and suppresses gays and women, but even these atrocity tales have been exposed as terrible falsehoods by juliann's brilliant sociological analyses. And while the testimony of science has also supported me in my apostasy-- because denying my testimony is apostasy, and I may in fact be beyond forgiveness at this point-- Alan Goff and David Bohn have exposed the fact that science is built on a false "positivism" that has been discredited by postmodern scholars like Jacques Derrida, who no doubt would be baptized right alongside me if only he were alive today.
And so to all of these apologists, I want to say thanks for being such shining examples to me all these years. I couldn't have discovered the truth without you.