"RED FLAGS" when I was a young Mormon
Posted: Tue Mar 13, 2012 5:49 pm
I joined the Church when I was 18, based upon "glowing" articles I read about Mormons in Reader's Digest. I discovered later that these "articles" were actually cleverly disguised advertisements, written by LDS Public Affairs. The articles presented Mormons as very moral, honest, self-less people. After 32 years around Mormons, and having been a Mormon for 8 active years, 6 semi-active, I would say that Mormons are no more honest or moral or self-less than the general population. 10 per cent of Mormons "fit" the Reader's Digest depiction. The rest fall short, and often far, far short. LDS Public Affairs has consistently used DECEPTION over the years; equivocation usually and sometimes outright lies.
A True Church does not need deception to help it along.
There were many "red flags" after I was baptized. I'll name just a few....
*I was given little pocket sized scriptures like the Book of Mormon and the D&C/PGP combo. I looked through them, and I noticed Egyptian writings and drawings. I said to myself, "No, this ain't right! This ain't right!" I particularly noticed how "womanly" the Pharaoh looked, with the long hair, hips, and extended eye-lashes. I remember thinking, "Oh no, I've made a mistake". That was one day after I was baptized. I tried to read the Book of Mormon, but it was excruciating; especially for someone not raised on King James English or the Bible. Trying to read the Book of Mormon for a person unfamiliar with the Bible or Bible history is like walking in in the middle of a movie about a Japanese emperor in the 1300s. You don't know what's going on. The Book of Mormon was so BORING I could not get past the fifth page.
**I remember in my first Ward, a Single's Ward. I was 18, but some idiot told me I was supposed to be in the Single's Ward. The youngest person closest to my age there was 30. I'm sure people didn't know what I was doing there, but some person I called told me I was supposed to be there. I remember sitting through the Sunday School and Priesthood meeting. This was in Santa Monica California, and all the talks had to do with success and acquiring wealth and how to be more successful, etc. I remember thinking, "Something is wrong. This ain't right. Something is wrong". Of course, everybody was preaching "The Gospel of Gain" but I did not know that then. At that time, the Gospel of Gain was very popular in affluent Wards. Basically, the purpose of the Gospel is to get gain: protection in travel, job promotions, beautiful sexy wife, successful husband, MORe MONey!!! That was very popular in the late 1970s in affluent Wards. Perhaps the same is true today. I don't know. I had no words for it then. I just remember thinking over and over again: "This ain't right. Something is wrong".
***The pretty girls of course, would never look at me. They would not make any eye contact. I could not understand that for YEARS. Finally, on my mission, I understood. In the brains of women, eye-contact with a male means "Yes, I want to mate with you." I was NOT seeking to mate with them. I looked at everybody, male, female, fat, ugly, beautiful. But, the women thought I was making "eyes" at them. I have very large eyes. Primitive men would bulge their eyes at females,and if the females bulged back, they mated. Went on for millions of years. My eyes are huge, and seem to be bulging, but they aren't. So, the women thought I was saying them "Want to date? Want to mate? Want to have sex?" The quick jerking of their heads away, said: "NO!" They spoke to me only when they had to, and they would deliberately look away, and talk not to me but to off into space as if they were talking to some ghost standing a foot to my right or left. Again, they MIsinterpreted my large eyes to mean I was asking them to mate. Their response: avoid eye contact, and talk not to me but past me to the right or left. This went on for 30 years. Mormon women are no different from other women. Not in the least. They lie as much. They sleep around with the Alpha Males as much. They are less honest, really, than other women. LIke most Mormons, they wear masks, facades. They are playing the "role" of being moral and righteous, but are not either in their private lives. Mormonism raises hypocrites, from birth.
***There were many "red flags" when I was a young Mormon. I remember thinking many times, "No, this ain't right!" I remember looking at a group of four missionaries, on the day I met them, and thinking "These young men are immoral. They are wearing masks, playing roles like actors. They are deceivers." I brushed off these thoughts and chided myself for having them. But I know now what I was thinking was the truth. But, I continued on. I with=held my judgment, until I knew more. I know more now. It took me about 15 years to make my conclusion about Mormonism. It was not the conclusion I wanted. It was the conclusion I had to accept.
A True Church does not need deception to help it along.
There were many "red flags" after I was baptized. I'll name just a few....
*I was given little pocket sized scriptures like the Book of Mormon and the D&C/PGP combo. I looked through them, and I noticed Egyptian writings and drawings. I said to myself, "No, this ain't right! This ain't right!" I particularly noticed how "womanly" the Pharaoh looked, with the long hair, hips, and extended eye-lashes. I remember thinking, "Oh no, I've made a mistake". That was one day after I was baptized. I tried to read the Book of Mormon, but it was excruciating; especially for someone not raised on King James English or the Bible. Trying to read the Book of Mormon for a person unfamiliar with the Bible or Bible history is like walking in in the middle of a movie about a Japanese emperor in the 1300s. You don't know what's going on. The Book of Mormon was so BORING I could not get past the fifth page.
**I remember in my first Ward, a Single's Ward. I was 18, but some idiot told me I was supposed to be in the Single's Ward. The youngest person closest to my age there was 30. I'm sure people didn't know what I was doing there, but some person I called told me I was supposed to be there. I remember sitting through the Sunday School and Priesthood meeting. This was in Santa Monica California, and all the talks had to do with success and acquiring wealth and how to be more successful, etc. I remember thinking, "Something is wrong. This ain't right. Something is wrong". Of course, everybody was preaching "The Gospel of Gain" but I did not know that then. At that time, the Gospel of Gain was very popular in affluent Wards. Basically, the purpose of the Gospel is to get gain: protection in travel, job promotions, beautiful sexy wife, successful husband, MORe MONey!!! That was very popular in the late 1970s in affluent Wards. Perhaps the same is true today. I don't know. I had no words for it then. I just remember thinking over and over again: "This ain't right. Something is wrong".
***The pretty girls of course, would never look at me. They would not make any eye contact. I could not understand that for YEARS. Finally, on my mission, I understood. In the brains of women, eye-contact with a male means "Yes, I want to mate with you." I was NOT seeking to mate with them. I looked at everybody, male, female, fat, ugly, beautiful. But, the women thought I was making "eyes" at them. I have very large eyes. Primitive men would bulge their eyes at females,and if the females bulged back, they mated. Went on for millions of years. My eyes are huge, and seem to be bulging, but they aren't. So, the women thought I was saying them "Want to date? Want to mate? Want to have sex?" The quick jerking of their heads away, said: "NO!" They spoke to me only when they had to, and they would deliberately look away, and talk not to me but to off into space as if they were talking to some ghost standing a foot to my right or left. Again, they MIsinterpreted my large eyes to mean I was asking them to mate. Their response: avoid eye contact, and talk not to me but past me to the right or left. This went on for 30 years. Mormon women are no different from other women. Not in the least. They lie as much. They sleep around with the Alpha Males as much. They are less honest, really, than other women. LIke most Mormons, they wear masks, facades. They are playing the "role" of being moral and righteous, but are not either in their private lives. Mormonism raises hypocrites, from birth.
***There were many "red flags" when I was a young Mormon. I remember thinking many times, "No, this ain't right!" I remember looking at a group of four missionaries, on the day I met them, and thinking "These young men are immoral. They are wearing masks, playing roles like actors. They are deceivers." I brushed off these thoughts and chided myself for having them. But I know now what I was thinking was the truth. But, I continued on. I with=held my judgment, until I knew more. I know more now. It took me about 15 years to make my conclusion about Mormonism. It was not the conclusion I wanted. It was the conclusion I had to accept.