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One thing I never expected after leaving the church.....

At first I was scared.
Then I was curious and asked all the questions.
Then I made friends.
Then I stopped caring a little.

But now I find myself getting angry again. I feel loathing and animosity for the church. I see things like the Jesus mall, and how they manipulate politics, and lie in their PR. Also, I see my friends who hurt or are trapped, having their own families turned against them.

Now I feel perturbed.

Why so late? It's been three years, why feel this way now? Anyone else?

Cinnamon Bear Head wrote:One thing I never expected after leaving the church.....

At first I was scared.
Then I was curious and asked all the questions.
Then I made friends.
Then I stopped caring a little.

But now I find myself getting angry again. I feel loathing and animosity for the church. I see things like the Jesus mall, and how they manipulate politics, and lie in their PR. Also, I see my friends who hurt or are trapped, having their own families turned against them.

Now I feel perturbed.

Why so late? It's been three years, why feel this way now? Anyone else?

Yep. Don't worry, though. Delayed anger can be elicited by any number of stimuli. (There are a lot of them out there.)

One of them is seeing your children (and grandchildren), firmly entrenched in LDS society, begin to struggle with the deceit and duplicity of the Church that is slowly but surely becoming clear and obvious to them.

At some point, they will be forced to make a pretty clear moral choice. Because of the road they have gone down (to no small extent because their parents), the choice is going to be have painful consequences, no matter which path they take.

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I think the current situation may in part explain the timing.

The members are being challenged far more to; pay a full tithe, be more than generous with other offerings, fund the ward programmes, financially support the missionary programme, replace the janitors etc.

And this is happening at a time when the Church is spending billions of dollars on a loss making commercial venture just because the around around the Salt Lake Temple looks a bit rough.

That makes people angry.

I still get angry sometimes, but often that anger is directed at myself.
I think of a family with a dirt floor that I helped convince to pay tithes to a church that has no financial accountability. I helped convinced them to give the little they had to a church that has billions.
I get angry with myself that when they told me not to look at "anti-Mormon" sources that I was naïve enough to be obey that counsel for years. Could anything be more obvious? When someone tells you not to look at critical information it's because they have something to hide!!!

Runtu sums it up better than I can

A lot of people get angry at the church because they feel they were lied to. I got angry because I realized that for years I knew deep down that something wasn’t right, and still I rationalized and justified things I shouldn’t have. I sold my conscience for the LDS Church, and it still bothers me a lot when I think about it.

What's worse is what a pathetic mall City Creek is. I thought is was nice, about the same as Gateway, until my brother took me to Vegas last month and I saw the malls they have down there which apparently cost less or about the same.

I didn't think the church was evil at first. The way I was treated after I left, seeing the wealth, and knowing the politics has soured me into being totally anti-Mormon.

Don't worry about it. At some point it'll turn to bemusement and then "meh".

- VRDRC

Many people seem to suggest that eventually I will lose interest. Partly this is true. I am far more interested in what Blixa or Trevor says about anything than any of the trash that oozes from MADb. Every now and then, though, I feel pricked by a sense of outrage. Maybe this will stick with me. Is everyone here basically "meh" these days?

Cinnamon Bear Head wrote:Many people seem to suggest that eventually I will lose interest. Partly this is true. I am far more interested in what Blixa or Trevor says about anything than any of the trash that oozes from MADb. Every now and then, though, I feel pricked by a sense of outrage. Maybe this will stick with me. Is everyone here basically "meh" these days?

When I left the Church, I was "meh" about it. I left Utah, made my own life, and didn't care.

Now, I've come back to the Church, I'm still "meh" about it. I view it as a man-made organization with a tad bit too much IBM/Wallstreet corporate mindset. So, I'm unsurprised when they do corporate group-think and things like the mall. I guess I might care if I believed the claim that the Mormon Church was run by God and really God's one TRUE church and kingdom on earth. But I don't.

Tobin wrote:

Cinnamon Bear Head wrote:Many people seem to suggest that eventually I will lose interest. Partly this is true. I am far more interested in what Blixa or Trevor says about anything than any of the trash that oozes from MADb. Every now and then, though, I feel pricked by a sense of outrage. Maybe this will stick with me. Is everyone here basically "meh" these days?

When I left the Church, I was "meh" about it. I left Utah, made my own life, and didn't care.

Now, I've come back to the Church, I'm still "meh" about it. I view it as a man-made organization with a tad bit too much IBM/Wallstreet corporate mindset. So, I'm unsurprised when they do corporate group-think and things like the mall. I guess I might care if I believed the claim that the Mormon Church was run by God and really God's one TRUE church and kingdom on earth. But I don't.

Then why did you go back?