Re: My life sucks.
Posted: Sat Nov 27, 2021 3:35 am
Hey Shades,
Divorce (and the events leading up to it) was one of the worst things I ever had to go through. Even though I was the one who initially requested a divorce, I cried all the time. I went through phases where I wanted him back, even though he was just as terrible as he'd always been, because I was afraid of life without him after 10-11 years of marriage. I was afraid him "being a better man" was just around the corner and if I lost him he was going to go and be that better man for someone else and I was going to miss it. It was hard to let go.
There was a group of people from this message board who, in private, were my lifeline and my support group. Blixa, Kishkumen, Stakhanovite, Seth Payne, Darth J, asbestosman, Runtu, and some others. They held my hand regularly and let me just cry and vent. Seth Payne even gave me an unsecured loan so I could get my own car and not have to share a car with my ex; I paid Seth back every dime within 2 years, but it was an incredible gesture on his part.
My divorce was finalized on 10-29-14. I'm sitting here 7 years later and divorce is one of the best things that ever happened to me. I'm remarried to a kind man who loves my older two like his own, we have a toddler together, we own a five-bedroom house that we love, we're financially comfortable, I'm a blue belt in Brazilian jiu-jitsu, and I'm just about to wrap up the first semester of my PhD work. I also have a chill job with good benefits that I love. 10-29-13, the day that I got up the nerve to tell my now-ex-husband that it was over and I wanted a divorce, I never knew any of this stuff was possible. I didn't know life could actually be blissful and peaceful and balanced.
I won't say much about my XH, but trust me when I say he is very much the same person he was when I divorced, with the same struggles. He has not grown or changed in 7 years. If I had stayed, I would still be miserable.
Hang in there. My hope is that, in 7 years, you'll be looking back in gratitude for your own divorce, too.
- BJJ
Divorce (and the events leading up to it) was one of the worst things I ever had to go through. Even though I was the one who initially requested a divorce, I cried all the time. I went through phases where I wanted him back, even though he was just as terrible as he'd always been, because I was afraid of life without him after 10-11 years of marriage. I was afraid him "being a better man" was just around the corner and if I lost him he was going to go and be that better man for someone else and I was going to miss it. It was hard to let go.
There was a group of people from this message board who, in private, were my lifeline and my support group. Blixa, Kishkumen, Stakhanovite, Seth Payne, Darth J, asbestosman, Runtu, and some others. They held my hand regularly and let me just cry and vent. Seth Payne even gave me an unsecured loan so I could get my own car and not have to share a car with my ex; I paid Seth back every dime within 2 years, but it was an incredible gesture on his part.
My divorce was finalized on 10-29-14. I'm sitting here 7 years later and divorce is one of the best things that ever happened to me. I'm remarried to a kind man who loves my older two like his own, we have a toddler together, we own a five-bedroom house that we love, we're financially comfortable, I'm a blue belt in Brazilian jiu-jitsu, and I'm just about to wrap up the first semester of my PhD work. I also have a chill job with good benefits that I love. 10-29-13, the day that I got up the nerve to tell my now-ex-husband that it was over and I wanted a divorce, I never knew any of this stuff was possible. I didn't know life could actually be blissful and peaceful and balanced.
I won't say much about my XH, but trust me when I say he is very much the same person he was when I divorced, with the same struggles. He has not grown or changed in 7 years. If I had stayed, I would still be miserable.
Hang in there. My hope is that, in 7 years, you'll be looking back in gratitude for your own divorce, too.
- BJJ