Gazelam wrote:
Your virtue was taken, not given. There is a huge difference. The one who molested you should be executed without question.
Actually, the Old Testament says he should have married me and paid my father fifty shekels of silver:
Deuteronomy 22:28-29 (King James Version)
28If a man find a damsel that is a virgin, which is not betrothed, and lay hold on her, and lie with her, and they be found;
29Then the man that lay with her shall give unto the damsel's father fifty shekels of silver, and she shall be his wife; because he hath humbled her, he may not put her away all his days.I don't think I would have liked that.
What is sad is the psychic trauma this has no doubt caused in your life over the years. Hopefully the hollow spot created in your heart by a loss of trust and safety can be filled up with the companionship of the Hooy Ghost whose attributes are Peace and Joy.
Thank you. It is very hard for me to trust and not be afraid.
What occured to you was monstrous, but no doubt you are a stronger person in having dealt with it and carried on.
I don't know, Gaz. Maybe. Or maybe things would be a lot different...maybe I would not be so afraid.
But I brought this up because I wanted to point something out to you that you maybe hadn't considered. I heard the same things you said, above, about those who are not morally clean being better off dead, and they haunted me as I was growing up. Do you know that no amount of kind words can make up for the fact that a person who is raped is seen as not whole within the church? Do you know that I dreaded every Bishop's interview, not because I was guilty of some transgression, but because I was made to remember again and again and again, every year, that I wasn't good enough in the eyes of Heavenly Father?
I would sit out in the hall waiting my turn, trembling and feeling sick to my stomach. I had to sit in a small room with the door closed, with a man I didn't really know, and talk about my worthiness, when I was frightened of him, and felt unworthy to even be alive.
Where is compassion, and peace, and love, and mercy, in a teaching that says a person should die? I ask you, Gaz. I'm almost begging you. Please tell me.
Because all I've ever known from that teaching is fear.