3. How does one maintain integrity/honesty while continuing membership in a church without sharing with their children that they have lost faith in the integrity of the church, knowing that their children will likely make marital unions with other church member, thus involving themselves further in a religious community that may not function based on integrity?
Most of my children are too young to understand, but I have shared some of it with my oldest child. It’s been a great opportunity to teach my children that the world is much bigger than the Mormon church and that all the different beliefs on God or religions can be the vehicle that lead us to the same place if we are striving for it. It doesn’t matter what car we drive or path we take as long as it doesn’t harm us or another. What works for one person, may not be the right vehicle or path for another.
The marriage question has been a difficult one. Part of me wants my children to marry in the faith, because there’s a sense of safety in it. I am still a Christian, and I love the focus on family values in the church. My husband is a great man, and has never exhibited the prejudice and sexism I’ve experienced from the TBM family he was raised in. Maybe there is hope they could find an open minded person like him among the faithful LDS.
But part of me knows it’s very unlikely they will even want to marry in the temple if I am not a serious believer in the Mormon faith. Having parents with opposing views on the same issues will make it tough for them to develop the testimony needed to serve a mission or marry a TBM.
Like most of us, I would prefer my children to develop the same beliefs I have. But, if they gain a testimony and end up embracing Mormonism as my spouse does, I will respect and support their beliefs just as I do his. One thing is for certain though…none of them will be Chapel Mormons or the narrow minded TBMs who make up the majority of LDS today.