Last War/Napoleon was the last straw.
long-time poster on LDSFF wrote:Last comment: Some of the desperate apologetics I have seen including on this thread- trying to explain it all- can I simply offer- I know what you are going through.
It hurts right now. Anger, embarrassment, resentment, the wedding you didn't have, the money you gave those people, the doors you knocked the 2 years you lost, friends telling you don't fall for it, and so on.
Just to say, it is possible to move past that and simply lay your life at the feet of Jesus, and say, I'm here.
It is true- he employs no servant at the gate.
He is on the other side. You'll find him, he'll take that sick feeling away and replace it with hope, love, joy.
We've done that. We still want to take the sacrament each week, and identify with LDS theology more than any other. (God head, pre-existance, sacrament, the need for a form of authority, need for baptism, his priesthood) It means we can't buy into the religious culture- (LDS) missionary work, temple baptisms and ceremonies, garments, kids on 2 year missions, LDS tithing, teaching lessons (haven't resolved how to do this, probably means we will surely be released)
The implication for us is, children, slowly unwinding things but keeping them participating- we like the youth program, want them to serve in the gap year, believe aside from messed up individuals and their interview techniques and lesson add ons/ personal opinions, want them to have a sunday school/ youth program participation. The Church teaches so many good values
We have no interest in open marriage, or drinking alcohol. We want to honor the sabbath, read the scriptures, and we have zero interest in active participation in other churches.
But if we are away from home one weekend we might go to another church to take the sacrament one week.
We haven't worked all that out.
But we're doing it slowly
How did I get here?
I am so lucky, so lucky, so blessed. I haven't prodded my wife in any way, nor she me. She was 6 months behind me. Mine was Iraq war, how could they fall for something so obvious, and back Bush. Then the handshakes, Cheney, Bush and so on
Then CHH / Wiikiwajado here at LDSFF
Then the waste of money on the conference centre
Then the abomination of the Mall, utter utter mammon
Then "lets go shopping"
Then seeing who built those places, and who is getting all the contracts in SLC to build things
Then seeing how the 12 are paid $600k a year, and all the others on boards where they get lots of money as directors.
The Mall was what did my wife. She is heavily involved in charity and compassionate service. It did her head in. How could Christs church be so uncharitable. And so she was prepared to suspend the holy anointed image,an consider
Then Tom Phillips explaining how some members get taken tot he temple and get their Second Anointing, on the quiet. Hmm, that not right surely. But he and his wife did
Then. Sweden and L Tom Perry and his breifcase. The arrogance. To simply put a line through Sweden like that
FINALLY
It was those 3 words. Those 3 missing words from the lesson manual. Who. Has. Means
Rock Waterman came in, and I read the tithing blog, which I turned into the 29 page tithing was originally and meant to be on surplus income
This came out at the same time as the December Ensign article- which said even if you and your family go hungry and homeless and have no utilities and are cold, pay your tithing.
And that opened the door of my mind to take all the stuff from the shelf and accept that (in my opinion) they lie to us for personal financial gain
Then I for the first time read Malachi 1&2 and learned hang on, god was talking to the CHURCH, not the members.
So with an open mind I stumbled on Joseph Smith, marrying other mens wives he'd just sent on missions, 14 year old girls.
All that was easy to say "oh, well, it wasn't until D&C132 when it all started to fall apart
But then I leared about Swedenborg.
And now this.
For us, there is no comeback
But there is a "go through". To Jesus.
Past the servant, past the arm of flesh. To him
Maybe that's the test. When a man, woman, lose the faith they were promised, do they abandon him, or embrace him even closer?
We shall see
Our "religious" journey might have just ended, but our spiritual one has just commenced.
And with that, my brothers and sisters, I bid you, Adieu!
I hope AussieOi has a safe landing.