William Schryver wrote:Ray A wrote:William Schryver wrote: I wrote it for myself several years ago, but I've decided I'll dedicate it to you. I've just sent you the lyrics in a PM.
So when did you make the big change Will?
I'm not done yet, Ray. Not done. In fact, truth be told, all I manage are a few baby steps at a time. I wish I could be as fruitful as many people I have seen in my life. But, alas, I'm just one of the "weakest of the Saints" trying to push ahead as best I can; still tormented by my own "thorns in the flesh" but unwilling to surrender altogether. So I just try to keep myself pointed in the right direction on the path, and put one foot in front of the other ...
I think you are right. Coming from an exmo, I would never accept what you wrote, but I respect the opinions of Mormons. It is time for me to stop the hypocrisy. I am most comfortable in my natural environment - among crude, swearing truck and taxi drivers. I think you're consistent, and I respect you for that, and I pay attention to your one post more than all the exmo posts on this board. Perhaps the Spirit inspired you to write that. I've been thinking for a long time, and maybe it is time for me to stop straddling. As addictive as forums are - it's time for me to bid a final farewell, and get on with my life, among my crude, uncouth, swearing taxi driving mates. I'm not cutting off the possibility of some distant future return to Mormonism, and you're right, the heart wants it to be, but it is not yet to be, for me. I cannot, simply cannot, turn against Mormonism. I am not putting on an act. I find it very difficult to even utter criticisms of Mormonism anymore. It's just not "in me". But I think I understand the charges of hypocrisy. Gandhi was right when he said that the greatest malaise in humanity is inconsistency between thought and deed, but I don't see this in Dan Peterson, which is why I respect his integrity so much.
It is in the best interest of all, mostly me, that I leave, and this time I'm not kidding. I cannot be critical, yet I cannot make that leap of faith. I will therefore not be posting on any Mormon-related boards anymore, and will be removing them from my bookmarks.
Fire away exmos. See you in hell.