..If I lost absolute faith in the LDS church, I would be the happiest person alive. And why not. The loss of belief would free me from a religious tradition. And it would also give me opportunities to discover other truths...
..I just don't understand the anger and bitterness of the exmos. The loss of testimony should bring happiness and not pain. Or it should bring sadness but bitterness? No.
Why me,
I think the anger factor has been addressed sufficiently and within reason by many here.
Now about happiness. I think our definitions of happiness are not one in the same.
You (and I) have been taught by the prophets that "it is the church or
nothing". If we are willing to believe this bald faced lie (and TBM Mormons
have to) we make an incorrect assumption that those that reject the church would reject morality, ethical judgement and consequence - because
there is none without the Mormon God. Mormons are taught that if the church is not true there could not possibly be a God. How dastardly. The alusion that there would no longer be laws to encourage restraint would make some happy - are you one of them? I wouldn't think so.
Rejecting the lies and other wickedness of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints does not negate my sense of right reason. I think those inside the church have a tendency to even unconsciously look outside with envy, "wow, those guys can do anything they want. They are no longer held to human decency by guilt or fear. I'm stuck abiding by the rules because (i think) I know they are true". I did not reject goodness because I rejected the church. I reject the church because because I would choose goodness.
I like the part when Korihor says: I do not deny the existence of a god, but I do not believe that there is a god.
I think that there is much wisdom in that sentence. I look at it the same way when it comes to the LDS church. An exmo should say: I do not deny that the LDS church may be true, but I do not believe that it is true.
A few exmos may harbor this delusion, but I think you describe the
rebelious uninformed - you know, those that figure someday they should repent and go back - only because they don't know it's a fraud.
The church is not God. God is not the church. The church in not true,
even if I believed it were true (and apologised for it).The Gospel is not a church or the church - and the church is certainly not the Gospel - although that is what many of us were indoctrinated with all of our life.