Tarski said:
I've seen that before. You seem to think that the Churchlands decided to be materialists and then suddenly realized there was mind to account for and then dishonestly tried to fake it.
Not so, I think we all start out with this intuition. But it never gets articulated in any sensible way.
I started out being really into the immaterial nature of consciousness when I was quite young. I took guys like Dennett to be fools and my intellectual enemies with regard to consciousness. But then slowly I started to get the point. It took me three reads of Dennett's book before I got it. It is very counter intuitive but at least is is articulate and not a brute intuition. Words have meanings and can be connected to experiement etc.
Your experience seems to have been very much like that of Susan Blackmore. As I recall, she started out as a parapsychologist but was never able to find convincing supporting evidence.
Tarski said:
I challenge you to make any sense out of "immaterial consciousness". What does it mean? What characterizes the "immaterial"? How do you know you are saying anything meaningful? Lets have some precise or functional definitions. How does one distinguish material from immaterial? This line of thought never ever gets of the ground. Lets have at it!
Let's assume that I am a materialist and I want to give the simplest explanation for human behavior. As such, I believe that all behavior can be explained in terms of brain function. Therefore anything anyone says is a result of neurons firing, say, in Broca's area.
I ask you, "Are you conscious?"
You may say, "Yes I am conscious."
I assume the simplest explanation: that there is no such thing as consciousness. All that happened was that the appropriate neurons in your Broca's area fired to give the verbal response, "Yes I am conscious." But I play along and say, "Prove to me that you are conscious."
First of all, are you having the experience of being conscious? If you are, is it real to you and if so, how do you prove it? How can you demonstrate your consciousness to me in some physical way so that I would be convinced that you are having an experience of being conscious? Switching hats, now as a non-materialist, I contend that the experience you are having, that all of us apparently have, has no physical representation, but for each of us it is very real.