I didn't address this the first time I read it because I was aiming for something else. Others have commented. I will too.
Gaz wrote:I have to laugh, because its certainly a more horrible death than the one my brothers and I had planned for her ten years ago when we were tryign to decide if we should end my parents suffering and just do away with her.
How would having one child dead and their remaining children sent to prison have ended your parents suffering?
This makes no sense whatsoever, Gaz. I understand thinking about such a thing (if only she weren't around...) when you see a person cause serious hardship and concern however, in actual fact it would have caused life long suffering for your parents.
I don't recall you saying if your sister's illness is terminal or if it is treatable. In any case, death is permanent, Gaz. You don't get to approach your own death more than once and you don't get a chance to approach your sisters possible death more than once.
When it's done, it's done.
I always thought that one day I'd run into my friend that I mentioned here while I was back home for a visit. That we'd meet for coffee or whatever, share photos of our children and talk about our lives.
What I got instead was a visit to a cemetary 3 years ago to find his grave.
Don't let that happen to you!
You mentioned learning something in all of this. I know that LDS look for something they are supposed to learn in a variety of situations.
How are you supposed to learn anything if you don't show up for class?
GO.