It turns me off because it is disingenuous, obfuscating pablum.
Nice linguistic work there. Well stated, although not stated about the correct phenomena.
There is simply no good way around it. I feel sorry for you that you have to defend such things. The best you can do is plead milk before meat.
Defend what things, exactly?
You don't know my spirituality nor my prayers. You don't know the personal angst it has caused me to arrive at where I am at. You don't know how I wish I could put things back to what they used to be. And you don't know me, nor my heart. I have dumped thousands of hours into the issues we discuss here. The sad conclusion for me it unfortunately much if what the Church claims and that which I used to defend seems not to be true. And that does make me very sad.
This is all a part of the standard "Why I left the Church narrative" that I've seen many, many times. I do not doubt that it has caused you pain. The problem is not your suffering, as that may be, but your rejection of the light and truth of the gospel and the Lord's authorized Church and the authority within it, which indicates that perhaps, you have not yet suffered nearly enough.
I was going to respond to your defense of the items I posted but really it is a waste of time.
Yes, it may be, and as your mind continues to darken, that even the light you had is taken from you, it will become ever more unlikely that I or any other apologist will be able to have a civil or reasoned discussion with you.
Take a look at Kevin Graham, and ask yourself it that is what you wish to become (because there is a long history in the Church of that pattern being followed to its sad end time and again).