consiglieri wrote:I often wish I could go back to the way it was when I had a simple and pure knowledge of the truth of the LDS Church. I was much happier then.
But then, I also know that my happiness was founded upon a host of incorrect assumptions, partial truths, and even flat-out lies.
It was a happiness grounded in ignorance.
Well, at least thanks for admitting you have apostatized from the church. I hinted at precisely this several years ago, and, as I remember, you bristled.
Just one question, back when you were teaching your "graduate level" gospel doctrine class, and your Priesthood leaders had placed a sacred trust in you to teach and testify of the restored gospel to your assembled hearers, did you subscribe to the perspectives you've outline above?
Oedipus refused to stop his search for truth, even when it was becoming abundantly clear that what he was finding out was leading him to misery.
Oedipus was brave enough to choose misery based on truth rather than happiness based on falsehood.
I'm not saying somebody has to be a Greek hero to follow truth wherever it may lead and whatever the consequences.
All you have to do is follow the Mormon hymn, "Do what is right, let the consequence follow."
Or, "O say what is truth, 'tis the fairest gem to which mortals or gods can aspire."
There is no going back to simple knowledge for me, anymore than I can return to the simplicity and innocence of my childhood.
And really, it would not be wise to try to go back. Childhood has been transcended, as has my initial "knowledge" that the LDS Church is true. It is time to put away childish things.
As I continue to go forward in my spiritual journey, I find my "knowledge" barometer has fallen and my "belief" barometer has increased.
Just the standard secularist/exmo litany of self serving, narcissistic posturing, regaling oneself with one's own pristine, hallowed intellectual depth, self honesty, and driven snow purity of motives.
Nice show, Consig...if you like this how-I-left-the-church-and-found-the-church-of-reason dog and pony show.
I went from faith to knowledge to doubt to belief.
Interesting, as the normal course is moving from doubt to belief to faith to knowledge, and then repeating the belief-faith-knowledge (revelation) cycle as spiritual and intellectual progress proceeds.
Knowledge led to nothing but stagnation, supercilliousness and contempt.
So "knowledge" is a negative category, and acquiring and absorbing it leads to personal degradation. Interesting.
But that's just for me.
If only that were true. Many, many others have and will - and unfortunately, some probably under your influence - yet let go of the Iron Rod and go wandering off down "strange roads" before the Great and Terrible day arrives unannounced...at midnight.