vessr wrote:
Thanks, Tobin. Yes, if the Lord called me to repentance personally, I would do the same. I am seeking to be honest in my inquiry after the truth. I am seeking the Lord as diligently as I believe I can. I seek to be kind, love and serve others. I would be pleased to have God answer me and bless me.
I may have more pain to go through, as you did, before I'm done with my inquiry. Thank you for your prayers and for your great hope that the Lord will visit and speak the truth to me. I hope I will be open to it. I'm trying to be open to any truth, however it will be revealed to me.
I've read your posts and about the events in your life that have swayed towards and away from religion but I have to say I don't buy either Tobin's statement or yours about being called to repentance.
If I suddenly felt that God had personally called me to repentance, like Saul of old, or any number of latter-day saved, the first thing I would do is question my own sanity. I've conversed with and am related to a number of people who swear that God has personally spoken to them and told them of danger in their path or sudden calamity, and I find it all nonsense.
First of all, God seems to get personally involved in amazingly mundane things, like where to find treasure or which bus to climb on to, but seems stupefyingly ill-informed about the health of millions upon millions of people around the world. Secondly, I do not want to be saved and would be exceedingly unhappy having to spend my life with other "saved souls" and I wonder why this so-called God would bother trying to wake me from among the 'walking dead'. Thirdly, when I start hearing voices, especially ones who have a special message for me, it's like browsing through foreign markets as a tourist with shop keeper's yelling after me, "Where you from? Buy this! Special price for you, my friend." In other words, more BS.