Water Dog wrote:
I am reticent to give the full details as I expect clever responses. I have had numerous experiences which I would describe as being very similar to those described in Enos in the Book of Mormon. I have had thoughts appear in my mind which were like hearing a voice. It wasn't through my auditory system though, more like how they show information being downloaded into someone's brain in the Matrix. I don't know how else to describe it, suddenly knowledge just appeared, thoughts I had never had, facts I had never (to my recollection) acquired anywhere else. That in itself could be rationalized away, and I recognize this, but in many instances I later had the truth of this knowledge verified elsewhere.
For example in one instance I received a very clear message that I needed to go somewhere, literally to a specific address which I had never been to before. To an unknown address in an unknown part of town for a completely unknown reason. And I didn't even know the address, but in my mind I saw a picture of the location, of the specific apartment. Just as if you remember a place which you've been to before, you can picture it in your mind. I saw such an image but didn't know exactly where it was, what the address was, but I knew approximately where in town it would be from the environment, and this was in a city with over a million people, which is important because the statistical chances of everything that followed happening by pure chance is simply impossible. I felt that there was someone distressed at this location that needed help. I had no idea what that meant at all. So I went to this approximate location and searched around until I found the building I had pictured in my mind. There it was, just as I had seen it in my head, and I had never been there before. I went, knocked, and found someone very distressed. A man, who happened to be an inactive church member who hadn't been to church in decades and was baptized in some other city, wasn't in our records, and he was dying from a terminal illness. Earlier that day he knelt down and prayed for the first time in years for help to be sent. A few hours later I arrived. These were his words. I gave him a blessing. This was many years ago now. I've long since left the area but from what I understand this man is healthy and doing well and has been back in the church ever since. I think his wife may have also joined, but I'm not entirely sure about that. The story of her is pretty interesting too.
In one case I had a very vivid series of dreams. This was before going on a mission and while I was wrestling with my status in the church. This is what I would consider my conversion witness, the big booming answer I got in response to Moroni's promise. I went through a very exhaustive conversion process, perhaps a re-conversion process, where I went around visiting lots of churches, studying various religions, and arguing with people like you online. And I can genuinely say that I didn't want to stay with the church, I had other interests. Long story short I went through a very long process of prayer which spanned months, around a year, where I would pray pretty regularly, almost daily, for some kind of witness and got nothing back. At some point I realized that I didn't actually want an answer. It was a very subtle thing that took time for me to realize within myself. I was not consciously making this decision, but was nonetheless at a subconscious level. I concluded this wasn't a good attitude and changed my attitude dramatically into one where I seriously wanted to know and was willing to bear the responsibility of attaining that knowledge. The nature of my prayers changed. Immediately following this I had a series of dreams which were extremely vivid, like none I had ever had before, similar to the feelings I would later have with knowledge appearing in my brain as previously described. They just didn't feel like normal dreams. Content-wise, they were like watching my future. And honestly after this happened I still wasn't totally sure this was a witness. It was really different and immediately recognized it as a possible answer, but I still sought to rationalize it. It could have just been a dream, I had no "proof." Almost immediately after this I received my patriarchal blessing, within a few days. It was pure coincidence and had happened to be scheduled at this time. I got my patriarchal blessing later than is typical. The blessing was essentially a word for word match with what I witnessed in my dreams. He was describing the exact same story with words. I had not told anybody about my dreams. Nobody, literally nobody, was aware of my spiritual endeavor studying the scriptures and praying, the dreams, or any of it. Nobody came to my blessing with me. But later that day when I returned home my mother remarked that I looked as though I had seen a ghost. Little did she know, that is quite in fact what happened. And it was many years, not even until after my mission, before I told any of my family about this experience. And I know how some will respond, they will say I found my dream in the blessing. And I get how it's easy to draw that conclusion from the outside, but this really isn't the case. Had you experienced it, you would not feel that way. And I'm not going to post the text of my blessing online or get into those details. What I will say though is that in general it is very different from other blessings I have seen. I saw a lot of other blessings during my mission, many Elders would kind of compare. Although I never did let anybody read mine, but many were pretty open to let me see theirs. I've also seen many blessings from various members of my family who are also in the church, and it's very different. Most of the blessings I've seen are pretty vague and similar. Mine is quite specific, very detailed, and it says some pretty bold things as well, the sort that are unlikely to come true and consequently could damage someone's testimony. And it's long, several pages.
I've had other experiences as well. I think these were the two most impressive though in the sense that I have literally zero rational explanation for them outside of divine inspiration. Some others I can attribute to possibly being mere coincidence, although I do not regard them in that way because of these experiences. The feeling I describe of knowledge suddenly just appearing in my mind has happened numerous times. I don't know how else to describe it, it's just a very different feeling. It doesn't feel like an idea or some random feeling in the traditional sense. By comparison the other thoughts or sensations I experience feel clouded in a sense. At any rate, I can't prove any of it, and don't expect anybody to take my word for it. Although I could present the distressed brother from the first experience I spoke of. He didn't experience things from my perspective, but he can confirm that I was a total stranger to him and just randomly showed up to his door as I described. It happened.
Perhaps I'm lying and just trolling this forum. Or maybe I'm crazy, although I've never had such a diagnosis. :)
So if someone has a reasonable explanation for these two experiences, I'm all ears.
Yep, when cornered with the tough challenge, the believer will fall back on appeals to emotion and spiritual "proof'.
I stand all amazed!