Inconceivable,
You may have a unique perspective that most Mormons don't. This is an apostate board. You've discovered that amonst this group, we went looking for something to decrease doubt on the outset. When we finally decided to look and check sources, we left. Most apostates don't seem to be what your leaders say they are. Think about it.
What is amazing to me is that, in spite of being a regular contributor here, the questions that we have raised don't seem to bother you much - yet. When that time comes, most likely you will seek out the more accurate information that has always been available - and then you'll leave the church too. However, I have no doubt you will remain the same decent guy you are today.
I have yet to figure out how in looking for information on church history people can lose faith. Maybe you approach it from a different standpoint or something. I don't know. Apostates are regular people. And by that I mean they come in all shapes and sizes. Some have had their feeling hurt, some have a doctrinal misunderstanding, some just never found out how to recognize the Spirit.
What accurate information am I missing? I have Brodies book in Hardcover. I own a copy of
Heaven and Hell by Swedenborg in hardcover also. I tried to buy a copy of Quinns magic book, but they wanted like $116 dollars for it, so I passed. But I understand whats in it. These things don't bother me. They are 3 persons opinions as they see things from their view. Brodies book really isn't that bad. Swedenborg hit on a few interesting points. Quinn recognized that Folk Magic played a big part in peoples lives in early america. It played a large role in my wifes family as they came from the hils of Arkansas just a few generations back. Her father can hold some interesting discussions on the old ways because his Father was brought up in it.
Its a big world with alot of culture in it, but at the end of the day we are all supposed to leave these things behind and embrace the culture of heaven. The church is being taught in 160 different countries, and all those people have their own spiritual upbringing that they have to deal with as they learn true religion. Joseph Smith was no different.
I know that the Father and The Son appeared to him, and I know that what they taught him and trained him in were true laws and principles. Not because I was brought up in the church, but becasue God himself told me so personally. I have a solid foundation of spiritual bedrock to stand on and a firm position to view the world from, and everything I study only further strengthens it.
I don't know or understand what sent you away, but its really to bad that you lost your footing. Come back.
We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light. - Plato